Looking at all my previous posts, I wanna slap myself-I was so dumb. Thinking everything over summer was the end of the world. God likes to put shit in perspective for me. Not a day goes by when I don't wish to go back in time. Constant wishing to go back in time. I'm scared, but too tired to be scared. Health is the number one thing in life people take for granted. Don't ever-don't ever just wake up and assume your body is gonna work like it should. Be thankful when it does. That's something I didn't do. I'm too scared to go to the doctor, but I need to. A big lump forms in my throat. Only 19 years old-I don't want this. Sadness fills my whole body and waking up is the worst part of my day. Really all I want is to go back in time-could this shit have been avoided? How can I go back in time?

How?

-GJW