I'm so tired of being angry, jealous, self conscious, and never good enough.

FUCK THAT.

Lol at how many times I've posted something like this that always has a "fuck that" after every post and how the feeling never quite goes away.

Silly me, I keep thinking it's going to change but it doesn't. Silly, silly me. It's kind of like, I'd laugh at myself-at how stupid I am for feeling this way and putting myself in a place like that-but I can't laugh because it is me. I am the one going through it. Maybe unnecessarily so, but that begs the question: "why am I going through it?" Well, fuck, let's see about that........

-GJW