So about a week ago I met up with KA and she filled me in on some interesting things.
Our friend GM who also happens to go to college with me -_____-, we were super tight in the beginning and in senior year but somewhere along the way we just went our own ways. Well this girl I mistakenly befriended in the beginning of the year, SSM also became tight with GM. Oh lord, do I start with all the things this girl did? This post would never end haha. Maybe I'll fill you in on her later, just know that she's crazy, controlling, manipulative, and just a bad friend overall. I told her that I was no longer interested in being treated the way she treated me and so good riddance to her!
Well, GM had a birthday dinner/club thing last Friday and SSM came for it. GM invited me, but it was later confirmed by myself and KA that GM had no intention of ever inviting me; KA asked if she was going to invite me. No worries, I'm not offended. Just intrigued by the truth.
Long story short, at the club, KA said SSM was SUPER drunk and kept on saying "You know, I miss [GJW] but I'm ok with what happened." She kept saying that and variations of that to KA. Also, she was so drunk she near passed out. Paramedics asked her for her name, birthdate and someone she knew. She said..."[GJW]."
I told her I wanted nothing to do with her in April and we went our ways after that (not without a ton of anger on her side). I do not regret cutting her out of my life, of course I don't. Some of the things she did after that fact were intentionally to get under my skin. It did work sometimes, but it never made me regret cutting her out of my life. It was fun to hate on her, but I didn't want to be her friend again.
It's just incredibly interesting to me, INCREDIBLY interesting that she, 4 months after everything happened, still talks about me. And not when she is sober, but when she is drunk. People spill secrets they never intended to when they're drunk. In no way am I flattered that she is still talking about me...ok who am I kidding! Of course a part of me is flattered. But a bigger part of me is a little concerned. Clearly this girl was infatuated with me. She got mad whenever I went to other people's rooms or hungout with other people or anything like that. She even went so far as to tell me that I "need to cut people who are bad for me out of my life, cut AP out of my life." She didn't know about me and AP, but she was incredibly jealous that I liked to hangout with AP more, enjoyed her company more, and overall had a better time with her. Sidenote-AP considered telling SSM about us but I kept on firmly saying we shouldn't and it's a good thing we didn't. She was jealous of AP and LM, she was infatuated with me, she did not want me to have other friends.
It's a little scary that she continues talking about me. AP has a hunch that SSM has a girl crush on me...KA asked me if SSM might have had feelings towards me. When AP said that, I was so surprised that I pushed her speculation to the side. But then KA had it too and AP voiced it once more. It may be likely. I ran it by my sister and she didn't think it was likely. But I don't know. It honestly could be that she just didn't have many friends and when she found someone that was (forgive my lack of humbleness) social enough, she wanted to claim me as her territory. She's done a lot of things to make it look like she's having a blast in college without me, and if she is, good for her! But somehow I doubt she's truly content with her current group of friends. I mean would you rather be a hippo or a croissant? :P
When I talked to MK about her part of me got a little bit of insight into why SSM acted the way she did. She didn't want to end our friendship, I get it. I forced her to leave something that she didn't want to leave. I kind of felt bad for her after realizing this. But she can't be so controlling and constricting. I was her friend for goodness' not her boyfriend or child! She can't control what I do. It honestly felt like I was dealing with a breakup -______-
The weird thing was that when my grandmother passed away, she texted me a few weeks later saying she was sorry for my loss. First off, it's weird that she even found out. Second off, what is she tryna get at with that? It's been about a month, month and a half since I told her deuces and now out of the blue she's coming back? I know it was thoughtful of her to text me that, but why did she even do it? I don't want anything to do with her, including condolences. Maybe she was still hoping that we could be friends again? One of her hippos seemed to casually drop information along those lines to SK.
That's all for now, I guess. I still don't know her motives and clearly GM won't tell me anytime soon either. If she still wants to be my friend, does she not get it that I'm dunzo?
Honestly it does seem like she was into me. What she would've said to me (?)- "He's what you want, I'm what you need"-The Weeknd, What You Need, except in this case "He" was AP. Ugh, she was so fucking weird,
Feel like I need to take a shower or something, echh
-GJW
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