I'm so tired of feeling nauseous all the time, waking up and not knowing if I'm going to throw up or if today my stomach is going to hurt more than other days. I'm tired of getting throw up scares. I'm tired of dealing with this for 3 years. Every time I tell my mom, I get the same answer "you're not eating healthy!" or stuff like that. I've changed my diet to healthy and it doesn't make a difference. I'm tired of going to the doctor and hearing "nothing's wrong with you, this is odd." Fuck that, it's not normal to feel nauseous every day of the week. I've learned just to accept it because my mom clearly thinks it's my eating habits. No!!!!! I want to go to an actual gastroenterologist and be like "yo, can you fix me?"

Way off sidenote-my family is going to be out of the country for 2 weeks and so my grandma's gonna come and hangout with me. First of all, grandmas are more protective than moms -_______- second of all, since I don't have an official job, my mom is thinking about sending me off to sac too. no, fuck that, you won't let me go to my cousin's house who live 10 MINUTES AWAY just because they're on dad's side. And you take any opportunity to shit talk them. stop it, they are my family, i like to hangout with them and it is COMPLETELY unfair that you wont let me stay at their place. so stupid. instead, since im unemployed, you want me to go to sac...newsflash!!! IM NOT GOING, i want to spend time with my WHOLE family. fuck i hate this