I guess I'm back to listening to Heart Attack by Trey Songz. When is all of this going to be over and make me really happy?

"Even here inside these walls breaking each others hearts, And we don't care cause we're in so, In too deep can't think about giving it up"-Even though AP and I are hurting each other, I don't care because that one moment where everything is all right is the best moment. We're in way too deep, and at this point so emotionally invested that the thought of giving it up crosses my mind but leaves as quickly as it enters. 

Waiting Up-Riz Ft. Drake

"I know there's other people that you talk to, But I just hate getting any proof shown to me"-I know you talk to DO, more than that-you're in a relationship with him, and I see it. I'm there when you guys are together. But seeing it is just a bitter reminder.

"I wonder if I should call you, But then again you never call me, And I'm just looking at my phone girl, and the last 3 messages are all me"-I look at my phone hoping that maybe she'll text me. The moment of looking at my screen has so much pressure, only to be a let down.


-GJW

Why do you always change your feelings? I don't mind you being with him (I don't have a choice if you want him), but please don't tell me that you only want me and then have a good time with him. Don't bring my hopes up please. I remember how I felt 2 weeks ago-the best feeling ever. And that feeling was taken away so quickly. It took so long for it to come, and a day or two to be erased.